Tuesday 12th January 2016

So the new year has started and i have been very busy... Well hibernating nothing else nada what an excellent start to this new year i must say. I have tried my level best to get my shit together and maybe change a few hopeless things in my life and also introduce a routine which is sooo lacking right now and at the moment well im at the very bottom of that ladder however im hoping to climb the first step in the morning by awaking early and getting out of my bed no matter how much the bed wont let me go or my body will reject getting out i will try my utmost best to put this plan into action and give my life a new meaning. It has been a very hard few days, as always heres me moaning again bla blah blah but trust me i have had it hard another ride in the ambulance a few days ago due to severe pain in my chest and back and difficulty breathing and after lots and lots of tests and sitting waiting they said Nothing can be done and i am to speak to my haematologist even if there are more clots hence i discharged myself instead of more waiting, with a canula in my hand and came home and my darling husband took the courtesy of removing it for me. So anyhow i have now recovered from that devastating pain and carry on to my own vices. So today was alright i was booked in for a treat from my loving husband a full body wax lol and the therapist was amazing i had a great time lol seriously virtually pain free after my coedine meds. Then i went to see mummy bear and daddy bear who are currently redecorating and i must say it is going really well. I will upload some pictures soon seeing as i have instructed some of it. Anyhow another long night....x