So it has been quite some time but my thoughts have totally been suppressed by this debilitating illness. I try and try to be the person i was once but i fail daily and struggle with just trying to even change the little things to how they were.
My life is the best right now, better than it has ever been, unfortunately though my health has failed me however if i had good health then everthing would be perfect but then again nobody has a perfect life thats just not possible there is always something that lacks a perfect life.
As i lie awake at night i plan my day the next day but when the day arrives i am unable to carry out any chores. Yes i do have a few good days when i am able to do many things but then i have to pay for it that night or the next day.
My life has taught me how to cope with my pains and all the pain has made me strong, so i can survive the pain but the fatigue is definitely a killer. Fatigue has really affected my quality of life.
I have lost alot of hope but Allah has given me so many reasons to stay strong and be happy so i still keep a little light of hope in the corner of my heart for all those people i love and whom rely on me.
Little by little things get done, i will take each day as it comes and i will not lose more hope or be ungrateful i have been blessed with countless blessings and i will enjoy these beautiful moments.
Trust me the little things in life do matter.
